#33 - Mar. 11th, 2024

Good morning.

I was ready to get out of the hospital yesterday. However, I woke up with a pain in my right calf. Felt like a cramp but the pain wouldn’t change with stretching it. I mentioned it to the dr and he sent me down to get an ultrasound on the leg. 

Results came back that there was a blood clot in that leg. That took care of the thoughts of getting out of the hospital yesterday. 

The drs decided that the best course of action would be to keep me in the hospital for observation and start me on a low dose of blood thinners. 

It’s now a balancing act of enough blood thinners to prevent blood clots but a small enough dose to prevent bleeding. 

I have to stay in the moment or my mind will start spinning and fear will creep in. 

Tomorrow will be 1 month since the surgery and a large majority of it has been spent in a hospital. 

There has been many times that optimism has been replaced by doubt, strength has been replaced by fear, dreams have been replaced by reflection. 

However, when those moments happen I am reminded that God is not in the future or the past, I can’t spend a lot of time in either. He is only now, in this moment. That’s where I need to stay, in this moment. 

In this moment, the doctors are dialing in the meds. 

In this moment, I have a wonderful support system. 

In this moment, I have peace and I have love. 

In this moment, I am ok. 

Love you all. 

Dave